Really truly good friends are so hard to come by. I try to be a good friend to people. I am there when they need me most & I can only pray they will be there for me too when I need them.

Tonight, I needed to be somewhere. He was so upset & really just needed to get away. I couldn't take hime away, but I removed him from the problem for about an hour & I think I helped. I think I was a good friend.

I even gave him a xanax - haha - he needed it. That's what friends are for......

Tonight, I also again needed a friend. I had called her for days, really needing to talk about what is going on in my insane head. She finally called me back tonight. Took her all of 3 mins. to figure it out & tell me that there really isn't anything wrong with me. I am not insane. This doesn't make me a horrible person & I won't go to hell. Turns out she needed me too. So we talked for quite awhile & then shortly after I hung up with her, he called. We talked till about 2:17am. I am still up but he had to go to bed. I called her back but got her voicemail.

Oh well - hopefully I will see them both tomarrow

Good Night & God Bless